The Key To Healing- Jeremiah 15:18-19

Her eyes were alert...watching, observing, trying to make sense of what was happening to her. Her little body was rigid, her silence an indicator of her distress.

Self- preservation had become such a natural, habitual lifestyle that everything about her revolved around that one goal.

This is how she came to us.

Little did I know how my life was going to be turned upside down, inside out...How my neat little Christian life with my service to God and manageable children and organized home were in that moment poured out and made messy.

I was made messy.

The earthquake rocked everything, shifting the landscape of my life and rearranging all the little put-together fancies I thought were so clever, so reliable.

I laugh now. I laugh at how we presume. I laugh at the fools we all are, thinking we are rich and wealthy and have need of nothing, not knowing that we are wretched and miserable and poor and blind and naked. (Revelation 3:17, written to the church, God's very people.)

I am exposed. I am revealed for who and what I am. It cannot be hidden. Adoption unveiled me.

I began a messy (oh, how messy!), desperate search for help. For truth. For something I can stand on and rely on and gain sustenance from.

There is only One place to go for that. And He is coming through for me. This is where my journey started, nearly two years ago:

"If you return to Me, then I will heal you." Jeremiah 15:19

It was with relief that I realized God's servants of old experienced things in their lives that exposed them too, that uncovered their neediness, their wounded-ness that hindered them from moving on and helping others. This is neither unique to me nor shameful.

If God did that for Jeremiah, He would do it for me.

Another realization, that I could spend my limited time consuming books, podcasts, helps, words, and everything from other's journeys...or I could make a determination to "Return to Me" and cast myself on that one way, that single option to find the healing and help my family is counting on me for.

I have chosen the latter (which is the main reason blogging has been so scarce for me this past year.)

All my hopes are in this one thing, that those who seek Him will not be disappointed.

He has invited me to make 2011 the year of Re-discovering Him. I have ordered my Chronological Bible and will start on it as soon as it arrives.

Some of you have expressed an interest in joining me in this. I am thrilled to have the company! At the same time, I can't promise much :)

I thought I might try to post my thoughts once a week here on the blog, sort of a summary of what I've learned that week about God, His character, His deeds as He progressively revealed Himself from the beginning of time. (But don't hold me to it, 'cause once a week posting seems like a big stretch for me right now!)

So you are welcome to join me and add your thoughts and discoveries. Maybe one day my testimony will be that I've moved beyond messy...that I have things figured out again.

But I doubt it, so don't expect it. What I do expect is being able to say that I "know and understand the Lord" (Jeremiah 9:24) and boy am I looking forward to the day...

I've given up on having a manageable, picket-fence-like Christian life. Knowing God is enough.

The Key To Healing- Jeremiah 15:18-19

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